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How can I not let my own twin back in? It hurts.. So, so much.. I don't know what to do.. My old counsellor made me feel like I was wrong for not letting them back in, for not forgiving them.. One of the nurses at the hospital once said "do you never think that it's partly your fault?"
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That nurses comment doesn't sit well with me either.
Not sure whats up with the bold type here Pain bear with me . I think its left over from starlite post.
Yep the forgiveness thing . With my brother its to darn risky to let him back in.
I hope I leave this earth befor he does. Thats about all I can say about it.
I really can't take anymore pain from him . so Im considering going completly no contact. no cards nothing.
This last card was just more of what hes always done.
I feel so very alone Pain . I can't replace my family . its the worst feeling. Its more difficult to share with new people. I wish I had the pictures of family .
and yes I could develop more friends but its just not the same . I reallt feel like an orphane . out of the loop and responsible for it but Im not .
Patricia.