I am getting really edgy and having....an episode. I am being mean and don't really care. I am driving faster and more erratically and don't care. I...just...don't....care!!! I recognize this episode for the first time ever. Maybe I am just becoming more aware of what my body is saying.

Anyways, I am being weened off the Lamictal so that I can prepare for trying to get pregnant in about 2 months. After Lamictal I come off the Triazolam (for sleep). This whole thing SUCKS! I wish they could come up with something that is safe to take while pregnant.

My nurse practitioner (who prescribes the meds) said that most peoples hormones correct some of the Bipolar symptoms when they get pregnant, but I am looking at TWO months, just to start, coming off the meds!

It's only been 7 days and I feel myself coming apart.

I'm not really asking anything, I just need to vent! Stupid meds, stupid bipolar, I HATE THIS!!!!