Hi Pain,

I was in a place a few days ago where the usual inspiration books I read from were just not helping . I told this to my therapst On Monday. Usually can open certain books and its right there .

Well I found the book I needed.sitting on one of my tables. Its out in the open so that means its something that I want to finish. Ive been carrying it arounds for the past three months from bag to bag to table .

Its 'The Four Agreements' By Don Miguel Ruiz

I've known about this book for three years.

Theres a section called take nothing personally and he is dicussing the very thing we are comiserating about . How o deal with those who hurt us with thier words.

he uses wording such as sending poison whih i don't care for . I don't like to think Im capable or do that. But when I get hurt and my backs up against the wall and they have hurt me it takes everything in me to not strike back and at times i do.

Any way . Page 56 to 61 found to be true He talks about suffering as an addiction. and how yo deal with gossip . etc.

This thought came to me about my brother.

I feel like sending a card that is blank inside and just write these words to him and those will be my last.

" Why do you want to hurt me?"

and thats all I'll say.

take care of yourself today Pain.

Patricia