Hi starlite

I was responding to this part of your post.

Nothing is filling my appetite.

I googled eating disorders and hunger to see what I could find.

I thought it said it better than i could have written it with my poor grammer and shpellzing..

There was a better site By web md actually.

Not sure what you mean by small spoon and big spoon. hope its not cocaine.

maybe someone else will have something for you.

Patricia