I'm not very good at talking or revealing my emotions in real life.

I feel noone is listening to me.

They talk between themselves and do things without my knowledge.

i feel so isolated and betrayed.

i feel bad for making them so upset, and yet so angry too.

i cannot connect with them.

I could tell everyone what they want to hear

please will someone hear me for once! I feel so alone.

I have my therapist telling me we need a conversation to work out the best help to offer me, i have my parents trying to move the situation onwards, and now i'll have a dr telling me it may be beneficial to take the ADs again.

Ultimately it will come down to what it always has - my own willpower. And i've run out of that. Why does noone understand that?

I'm surrounded by people but noone listens. I feel that unless i tell them what they want to hear they never will.

I feel pain because i'm causing stress when i never meant to cause any.

But i've lied for so long, i've pretended so much, and these are the thoughts that have been going through my mind for so long. They're not nice, and i know people don't want to hear them; all they want to talk about is ways to 'get better', but i can't pretend for others anymore.