Thats what I felt like this week!! Not exactly that but pretty similar.

My CPN kept talking about the things I see/know, and how the early interventions team can help me, and I was starting to feel a bit weird about it.
I didn't really like how she was saying things.
Then she asks me "do you know what's real and what's not??'
And I didn't know what to say.
I can' t think about it that way, it's really hard!
I used to think certain things were in my head and others weren't, but now it's different, I can't think of anything along the lines of what she was talking to me about, as being unreal.
Because it is real! Thats the problem! They can't help me with everything because they don't believe in it!

She was talking to me about getting rid of the bits I wanted to. How I can keep somethings (like Michael), and get rid of the rest (like the demons)
But I kept telling her I don't think we have any control over that: the demons are demons, not figments of my imagination.
I don't think Michael will leave, I hope not, because he is attached to me.

But she wasn't listening atall.

When I got home I just burst out crying, cause she doesn't believe me, and before I thought she was starting to.
It was a horrible session.

She phoned me though to see if I was OK and say sorry if she hurt me.

I guess she did say to test it, by taking the medication, and if it stays then maybe I'm right. Which is kinda thinking about the possibility of it a bit.
But I'm scared that if I take it and things do fade, then most of what my life revolves around isn't really there, and that just hurts my head. And what if it is real, but they're insulted by me taking the tablets, and they leave anyway, so that I think it is in my head and I'm crazy.

The last few days have been hard.
Things just seem strange, and don't make sense now. Some of it's too unfair. My head is pulsating.