I don't know. Because it isn't beautiful to me. I mean, not yet anyway. I have the persepective that sex organs (i.e. penis, vaginas) are not beautiful compared to the ones you may see in porns or something. Like how most people might not look like models on tv. I know real life isn't like that but media and tv gets our hopes up in the sense that we will look like what the beautiful people they advertise if we buy their products or something.

Anyway, one day, when we can actually get privacy to settle down and maybe even plan the action, then it'll be beautiful. Until then I think I'm stuck turning away every time his pants are around his ankles. I think we should stop trying to force it.