I can also relate to what you wrote. I was told the other day that perhaps the chronic pain I am in contributes to my depression and attitude problem. Perhaps this is true, I have had back pain and my back side numb since October. I use crutches from time to time, and a cane. I am also losing the use of my muscles and can't get up off chairs anymore. I find that I get more and more miserable, since a few years ago I went and got in debt with school, and can't do what I trianed for. I also have problems using my hands.