getting rid of the blade would be good - that way it cannot drop out and tempt you again - I have a stone with hope written on it - maybe you could get somthing like that - or a list of reasons not to hurt yourself in the place where the blade was
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet