Well done on fighting the urges and getting through it - sometimes its second by second but that leads to minute by minute - hour by hour - day by day - congratulations on reaching out and getting out there and carrying on without hurting yourself !
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet