right now this is how l feel............l am struggling with so many things that you just take for granted......l cant even comfort my distressed child l have to hand him to his father............what sort of mother does that make me..........his hurt is so obvious and yet l am so useless that l can't help him and according to some people we know its down to me..... my fault that he is suffering as he is..................apparently he is scared he is going to die because l dont give him enough attention. My one thing that l have managed to do is to give them all l can and keep them safe but it appears now that others are convinced of the crap job that l am doing and didnt hold back in telling me so....................the long and bumpy road has hit a big full stop there was a big hole in it and l fell in
my heart is screaming and crying, myhead is ready to explode....... l need some sleep and some peace.................just for now let me sleep it away