Thank you, Nightdream. I know, intellectually, that what you say is true. Yet, somehow, I've gotten stuck in the hurt. And low energy, muscle aches that prevent activity such as regular lap swimming, long walks, not getting as much done, is a continual reminder of what's gone.

Sky, I took the depression quiz. A score where I'd gone down 2 points was wiped out. Now I'm up 10 points from where I was when I first took the quiz. It's in the highest category. So I guess showers, wearing clean clothes, eating, and working camouflage, rather than cure, underlying angst. Or whatever the heck this underlying crud is.