These questions are always hard to ask as we are not professionals here & most of us have a wide variety of symptoms. Like me, I don't fit in some categories 'cos I don't fit the criteria all the way. This is something a T would have to help you answer.
I do credit you for having a starting grasp on how you are feeling, what is being felt inside.
For me, things never feel real. i.e. I'm married, have been for 6 years, have a ring, but unless my husband is here w/ me, I don't "remember". I don't know if that's along the lines of what you are saying. I always called mine that "outta sight, outta mind".
Love,
RM