thankfully now these thoughts have subsided for now...im now feeling complete bordem yay fo me!!! not...trevorzero i really like the way you put that, but at the time i was not angry at anyone (at least if i was i dont remember who i was angry at or why) turquiosesea i think you were right i really wasnt feeling any sort of emotion...it was kind of like iw as cold anf lifeless but was still interacting normal with friends and family so they were none the wiser to the thoughts that were running thru my head. just floating if i had something to distract me i would but i can never seem to find anything that distracts me good enough. pegasus i think i need to invest in a punching bag =D thnx for all the help...sorry i took so long to reply back cant get on here as much now that im staying at my mums for a little while