I don't want to be in this place- this dark, hopeless, endless depression. I don't know how to get out, I'm not sure there is a way out. I want to believe my therapist, but I just don't. I don't want to be this way for my family. They shouldn't have to have a wife and mother like this. I wish I could tell them that I will get better, but I don't want to give them false hope. I am just so tired, breathing is an effort. I don't want to do this anymore. If I could just feel some sense of hope...