thx paddym22 for your reply. It's nice to meet someone with similar issues going on. Today I'm just on the MacBook at a coffee shop, scared to go home again. I'm not getting along with my sig other very well. Not trying to ignore her, just afraid of conflict. I'm focusing on me, I can be responsible for me. Honestly I'm just pretty bummed right now. Look forward to posting with you and others here. Good day.