hi neicy440, I'm looking at a new dx for bpd and I was dx for bipolar August 08. I really identify with your comment about agoraphobia.
There have been times I wanted to go outside and I was just too bummed to get off the couch. To bummed to take a shower and get cleaned up. Sometimes, especially when I swing to a sad depressed mood, I really have problems being around people. I think I was aware of when I watched too much tv when I stopped watching episodes and started watching whole seasons of episodes. I'm not saying voices in my head stuff, they're all after me. Truth is I know most people are occupied with their own lives. They couldn't care less one way or another that I'm around and thats OK. I'm saying it feels like I have a small rain cloud above me I feel like others can see it, I'm embarrassed. Or sometimes I'm afraid I might run into a social situation that is challenging for me to handle appropriately. So today I'm at bit bummed but I'm at a coffee shop, the quiet din of the conversation is nice. Its OK the just sit here and be anonymous. Another thing I do is if I'm scared to go outside I'll ride my bike around. The act of being in motion, the soothing sound of the wheels rotating on the pavement, the rhythm and cadence of the pedal cranks is nice. Hoping my thoughts are positive for you with the agora issues you mentioned. Just trying to share honestly, thanks for your post here.