I really appreciated all the replies I got. I am on Lithium, Seroquel, Lexapro, and Trazadone. While they do help they cannot completely keep me from dipping into the darkness of depression. I am much better. As far as the relationship, he is not seeing her intimately right now but really that is not my problem. I think my disorder makes me have thoughts and feelings that have no basis. And he is afraid of me because I am B/P. He is afraid I will get him involved and then just up and leave so he is acting different which makes the insecurities grow. It is like a never ending battle. I am glad to know I have people who will listen and understand.