I understand exactly how you feel. I am new here and just posted yesterday. I was so far down in the hole that I could not see my way out. I finally gave in and took the afternoon off, went home, took a Seroquel and slept the afternoon away. Did I feel better, no not really. But I am also on Lithium, Trazadone, and Lexapro so eventually I always come back up from the dark places. I felt better today...not 100 percent but some better. Sometimes sleep is the only freedom I have from the pits of hell I call depression. I am so glad today I at least can talk to people without crying. It is very frustrating I know to be in that state. I am here with you. I feel your pain and your sadness. It will get better in time. We have to keep our focus on that hope.