Hi,

Now that I'm reading about OCD, I'm thinking I might have it for so long since childhood....OMG....I'm freaking out....all these days I was suffering from OCD??? could you please help me? Do I really have OCD?
here is my story:

well....if something happens in my life like a break up, I can't get it out from my mind at all....It takes almost forever to get rid of it....just month ago the boyfriend I had for two months broke up with me....and now I'm all obsess with him.....I think about him every single day....It drives me crazy....it's funny, we've been together for two months and for one months we broke up and I'm still thinking...that's stupid really...I feel horrible because he won't think about me like this for sure!!!!! I can see him on facebook living his life....updating his facebook status.....I try to overcome with my obsession and I removed him from my gmail chat list, but still time to time I go and check if he's online....so pethetic....then I don't have courage to delete him from my facebook, probably, I still have hope.....but I put restriction to not see him on my home page, but still I can see his status.....and since we broke up, he updates his status very often....
Do you think this is obsession?
and at top of all this break up stuff, I just lost my job this week....how wonderful....hehehe....I'm looking for a job now....but interesting that I was more hurt from the break up rather than losing my job.....
I'm really working on my brain to be positive....I do excercise everyday and I do meditation everyday to fix myself....I really work so hard to be a better person.....
but....I can't get it....why my brain keeps thinking about him....and this is not a first time....when I get into a relationship that I feel for the person, I'm like this after break up....even in the middle of night when I wake up, I think about him....that's scary really.....I'm getting scared of this.....
thanks for reading my lengthy post
Marjan