Monday I was having family problems and I allowed it to get to me so I done what I could to take my mind off of cutting.So as the day went on I couldn't fight it any more and that resulted in me getting 15 stitches.Today it's been raining all day and rain always gets me down and don't feel like doing nothing but staying in bed.My anxiety is sightly high and all I can think about is reopening my wound to see my warm blood run.I'm trying not to think about it but the urges are strong that I can't push them away any more.I'm about to give in so that I can stop thinking about it.