irrational. rational. its all the same in the moment when ur feeling that way. ll my friends in there successful life and me in my screwed up mood swing filled one.

earlier i was craving activity. ANY thing to do except sit by myself at home again like i do everyday when everyone i know has things to do. i get little time at work so im home all the time. its really frustrating and i harbor hard feelings at times when i feel the most lonesome. today i brok down crying because i felt so forgotten and broken inside.