Hang in there .....we are here to talk too and we all know how your feeling ....we all at one time or another or even at this very time have been in that deep hole and just know your NOT ALONE..........
we care about you and your loved............Keep talking to your T about your feelings....journal them....get them out .....but there is HOPE....other wise I would NOT still be here hanging on to my rope either..... I am in my deep hole this week and last week and the week before...feeling the same way you are now....but I just keep talking to my T and he says we can work through this as long as I keep talking so I keep talking and I come here and keep talking and the people here have SAVED me more then once.....I LOVE PC so much
so please do not be so hard on yourself... I know I am one to speak huh guys....take care ....