you sound pretty distraught.
I know coffee can get me to do things I wouldn't do ordinarily.
mundane things that bore me: cleaning my room, organizing my clothes, washing my clothes...doing a boring job.
how did you end up in a boring job?
what would you rather be doing?
did you have a job you liked?
why can't you do this job till you get one that interests you more?
gosh, sorry but that's what I might do.
I found a job I love most of the time.
So I lucked out.
I spent 29 years working in jobs I liked somewhat....
but now as fate would have it I like my job (most of the time).
There are always things about jobs that are boring and hard,
challenging and life changing.
well there you go...
I can't wait till I can retire...
SS will probably be yanked by that time so my dreams of retiring are probably inane.
work, we all need it.
keep what you've got till you find something better and switch...
does that make sense?
Ganesha