i no how u feel i lost my mum 2 yrs ago and what i give 4 1 min 2 c her again my only consalation is she is not in any more pain.When i miss her the most i talk out loud 2 her and ask her 2 give me a sign she is with me.I dont no what your beliefs are but i always get some sign she is ard.>dont no if this is helpfull but i chose 2 believe they are only gone in body the spirit remains lots of hugs .