Zen, first I want to offer hugs!

One jerk after another, until I wondered if it's even meant for me.

It will take just one man to restore your faith.

Oddly, I met my man online but the scenario was reversed: He is the one with the illness and was afraid I would run. Didn't and have no intention of doing so. It will be 3 years this year.

I don't want to sound trite, but I guess it was just faith for me, believing that there ARE good men out there and that it can take a long time to find them. I wanted to give up many times, and I was about to when I decided to try online dating sites. I was 45 when I met him. 45, when most people my age have been with someone 20 years or more!! Maybe even known them since high school or college.

You are as good as anyone else. Tell yourself you have a lot to give, and this man on the Internet (and the others) don't deserve you.