My life now has been reduced to seeing my T once a week and the rest of the time on my laptop and watching TV. My biggest problem is depression (diagnosed as major depression) complicated by my left foot being impaired due to nerve damage from a blood clot. I realize this is not a valid reason for not going out, but depression seems to be an anchor around my neck.

I retired from work due to my depression becoming suicide and self injury related due to a major conflict with my branch chief. He wanted me out of his branch no matter what. I had worked there for 23 years and had been a team chief and changed my profession to align myself better with the agency. Recently I tried tax preparation with a group that wanted to overcharge people. (When someone comes in barely making enough to pay their bills and they are charged 100 to 300 dollars, it seems wrong to me.) This turned out to be hard for me to ignore. Since then, I feel as if I am stuck in molasses. I want to change, but I am finding it hard to pick myself up again and do what I need to do.