Thanks... it's good to read the feedback people have given and to know, well, heck, it's okay to come here and cry on everybody's shoulders. Heck, I've never said I wasn't human too, and times like this, you feel it intensely and it's hard to see there is any future.

As for being generous about what happened, don't get me wrong... there's anger there, and a sadness that won't quit any time soon. But the rational thinking part of me can look at things somewhat objectively and see this, that, and the other thing.

My heart, however, cries out at the injustice and loss it feels, the loss of closeness, intimacy, heck, even routine. I miss it all, and it'll be some time before I get over all of that.

John