My job is very stressful and i work at a bank. there are always managers threatening to to fire us if we do not produce numbers to meet our goal. I do not know how long i can hold on, i can not seem to remember everything, concentrate, or work fast enough. i broke down and cried after i lost a spreadsheet on thursday. i know i can do this job, but i feel like something is holding me back. i know it is my depression. I am to the point where it is hard to get up in the morning, or even clean my house or take showers. all i want to do is sleep. i was not always like this.i just made my first appointment to see a psychologist, and I've never been to one before. i feel good about taking the first step, but what about how i function at work. i can't go on like this. all the doctors i called seem to have early hours and i can not take off work so i hope this doctor will see me in the afternoon. I am really trying hard and even writing down everything at work so i won't forget things but i still seem to forget. i am so afraid of what will happen if i lose my job and health insurance. i just need a break, please help i am crying...