Thanks for the hugs Angie!

I think I'm starting to get the idea from all of you-- I'm too hard on myself!! I totally understand what everyone is saying. Just need to figure out how to break this pattern- it's so darn automatic.

And the very thought of the possibility of making a mistake sends me into a kind of panic--- I'll lose that chance I might of had to be loved. Perhaps that doesn't make sense to some-- but that's what goes on in this confused head of mine.

Mandy