I hope you get a T soon and that they help you through this
In the meantime come here and let us help to support you
Not knowing what started this is hard - sometimes its not a big event that happened but lots of small ones that chip away until you get ptsd -
I hope things improve for you soon
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts 
its how many times you get back up! 
(Thanks to fenrir for my Picture 
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When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown,
Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly.
by Patrick Overton, author and poet