((Inny))
You are still the good mother you were before you cut.
Being a new mother is an extremely stressful situation so resorting to old ways of coping would make sense. Maybe you could join a mother's group or a play group? Also, did you have a T to work with? You need some support, because parenting is a really hard job. I bet you are a GREAT mom!
Congratulations on the birth of your son.
Be well. Take care.