wil..... ouch. 17 years! I'm sure that was much harder to deal with than my measly 1 1/2 years... I know how you must've felt, in some small way.

I know I will again regain my own life, but it's hard when so many memories are still so very much active right now in everything I do, every object around the house (we never lived together, thank goodness!). I had also put off making any local friends after moving to where I am now, and of course, that comes back to bite me now when it sure would be nice to have one or two here locally. Thank goodness my long distance friends have been so good to me, reminding me that I'm not the horrible person that I feel like right now.

John