Hey!
I am overweight, normal it wouldn't be too concerning and not much people actually see it quite clearly for i am good at diguising it, but i have instable knees.
Therefor it would be very important to lose weight.
But I just can't.
I love food and eating. I always eat when i feel depressed, that is quite often.
I really wanted to get anorexia or bulimia, but I just couldn't, maybe because I nearly saw my sister dying because of it an struggling with it even now, but she is on a very good way.
But that leeds to me thinking, i can't even do that, being frustrated-> eating.
I tried to eat apples or something like that at those times, not buying chocolate or that stuff.
I still can't control it and that makes me hate myself.
I used to be very competitive at sports, but after I had a accident, I lost it and even though I know, I feel a lot better after and while doing sport, I can't bring myself to do it, because it has become sohard with all the overweight.
Also I must add, I am allergic to certain food, like bread and that stuff, but I eat it anyways and of course I am in pain afterwards, I don't know if it is just plain laziness to make myself good, warm food, or if I wanna hurt myself that way...
Do you have any ideas or suggestions?
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