the mood is changing.... going up. I'm being smart (I think) and I have actually told a couple of people that I'm fortunate enough to have in my life who know enough about what's going on to basically call me on stuff. I'm running around my apartment like a chicken with my head cut off... taking care of things I neglected while I was down. New p-doc appt is 6/7/05... I'll have to duck outta class a bit early to go, but I'd say its worth it. Also, I'm FINALLY getting my divorce! It's only been 6 bleeping blooping years! Going to go be productive, because I want to write, but I can't until I get cleaned up... ugh! Maybe I'll leave the laundry til tomorrow? Hmmm? Anyways... I'll be back when I have another cigarette!