Hi Forgotten ,

have you been hooked up with a forensic psychologist who specilizes i eating disorders ? .

Mine was good except for one minor glitch that upon refelction could be seen as a desparte suggestion for someone who could not stop the food cycle .

Im telling you right up front.

its possible to have childhood sexual abuse completely removed from your concious awareness .

It takes a real pro to see the signs . they are out there.

I had hypnonisis tried on me a couple of times as well .

your feeling hopeless.
I know what thats like to feel so totally hopeless .day in and day out.

to be alone in it with absolutely no family support except to play with your mind .

you must FIGHT this drive to destroy yourself . theres a reason for it and you are not the one who put it there on your own accord.

I can't tell from adam or Joesephine if you have a past that was so horrible that you can't remember a thing.

I see the signs . in you as you type .

You need help .

and a place "within you" that you can surrender to the possibility that there are other reasons as to why you want to exit .

For me it was the hopelessness of the food . I just couldn't get a handel on it .

I had a tremendous psychic shift after the regression . It enabled me to do what ever i needed to do to stop. the food and move on from there. And it ain't been easy at all.

I belive i have ADD and always have,

thats my strugle now .
and yet another area where I feel responsible yet Ive worked and done everything I can think of and my mind just won't stop shifting.

it aint fragmentaion , it aint acting out to avoid some deep internal pain pain . Ive faced my pain . and still face it as it presents itself .

I just now have the pain of repeate wash and re rinse from others .

the feeling of being piginholed and traped . but not heard or listened to .


just a bit of a frustration unloading here. rant .

I keep stoping by here.

I feel bad when I see individuals so forgotten . such as you.

I was one and I sort a still am .

its a journey , Forgotten

and its one for you to know you .

And your worth it .

Take care

Patricia