Hi, been struggling for nearly 3 years, since i saw a friend get killed, never spoke to anyone, just went to my GP for pills, stayed on them for a couple of years, until i started to feel worse, came off them, got even worse, did eventually convince myself to go & see someone, ive been to him 3 times now & its not going well, last time today, it was terrible, i cant seem to talk without shaking & getting upset, & finding im not making much sense, i seem to get lost back in what happened & when he asks me whats happening i just clam up, & it becomes difficult to even speak, i know its an impossible question, but how long untill it gets easier?, i dont know what to do, i know i have made myself totally isolated over the last few years, & totally protected, i havent allowed anyone in, do i stay with what im safe with, be grateful for what i have, even though it impacts on my life everyday, but i am still alive, or do i persist with my T, im also worried if i carry on i may become dependent on him, can anyone help?..