I'm glad that you've accepted your depression, and I'm glad that you're not kicking yourself for being depressed. It is okay, there is nothing more wrong with being depressed than having the flu -- it just happens, so we keep on living despite it.

I'm glad that you feel safe right now. That's a very, very good thing! Trevorzero may be right that there's a risk of not being safe in the future, but I think that when we accept our depression, we're better equipped to handle any dangers it may lead us to (like getting help when we feel we need it). I read a book where the author stressed that the depression itself can't hurt you. You can hurt yourself, sure, and that's where the danger is. But if you accept it as an illness and do what you need to in order to get through it, there are much more dangerous physical or psychological illnesses you can have. Depression is dangerous in its own way, but it's also a distant danger that can be dealt with in many different ways. There are always options, and there's a comfort and sense of security in that for me.

More hugs. Take care!