What I wouldn't give for a good thunderstorm!!! I think there's nuthin worse than going through a depressive state in the blaring incessant so cal sun. None the less, your p-doc works for you, if you're not happy with him and he's not listening to you fire him (or at least demote him). There must be more help there then him. I am unsatisfied with my psychiatrist now too, so am about to see a psychologist: the difference is night and day. I mean whereas pyschiatrist can barely fit you in for 15 minutes and try to mold you to fit around whatever diagnosis they want to apply to you, a psychologist calls you directly listens to YOU and what is really going on (then can talk directly to your psychiatrist on your behalf). I don't know your location or how many options it can afford you, but I am betting that at times you can be just as manipulative of systems as I can, so make it work for you love! anything I can do to help let me know!!! send some rain my way too....=)