(((bd))) i sometimes hate this expression but for me it's true...try to do baby steps..like step outside and take a short walk to help curb the isolation. if u see a neighbor you may not feel up to a conversation, but try to say hello.
are u seeing a therspist and getting some of these feelings out? many times our depression can make us feel numb, very numb. it can lie to us that we are worthless, or helpless. it can drain us of our energy cause it takes so much mental energy to do just one thing. i know. i've been there. it's a dark place. it's a lonely place.
so i'm glad you are "talking" about it here. at least that gets some of it out and lessens the power of the depression. keep posting and get it out.. we're here for you and i care about you. saw your pm and will reply in the morning. got to get offline for right now. hang on. we'll help you til you are stronger and can find the strength on your own to feel better. if you aren't seeing a pdoc or t, i encourage you to do so. sorry can't remember.