((((((((Kathy)))))))) I am so sorry for your lose hon. I do understand . I had 6 miscarraiges. The longest I could carry was to 4 months or just a little beyond. Its never easy. The thing that has helped me the most is to talk about it. Dont keep your feelings in. Find a friend to talk to ,cry whatever it is you need to do. My therapist once told me to write a letter to them. Tell her how much you love her and miss her. Even the hopes you had for her . I told mine that I know they are in a better place.If they couldnt be with me and my husband. Who better for them to be with than God to hold her and protect her and love her? She's got everything she will ever need and want there hon. I imagine my babies up there playing with eachother, eating ice cream,giving eachother hugz and smiling too. It brings enough joy to my heart that it comforts me. God has His plan Hon, we just have to accept it and move on with our lives.After years of wondering I think I understand why I was not able to have kids. Gods plan for me was to take care of my Dad . There is no way I would be able to handle a family and this too. And the fact that I am dealing with my abuse history. It would be too much. But anyways. I hope this helped you somehow , some way to be able to do your grieving and to move on. And you know its ok to find yourself one day smiling when you think about her, in a memory of how you would think things would be now. Hold on to that Sweetie. It will be ok. Hang in there.

Hugz~
Beth