|
I'm really lost right now. Between depression and dissociation I can not get a grip on reality, I can not perform even basic tasks. I feel privileged to be posting here. But I also write with the knowledge that I will probably (95% give or take? miss the one thing I have to do tomorrow... one of the two things I am signed up for in a week.
I haven't filled out job applications, I haven't gotten any better. Because once one things goes away, another comes.
I was released from depression a good deal, but then, dissociation. When the dissociation goes, I am left here and too long without some other problem and I slowly sink into the quicksand that is depression.
So I sit here typing feeling discouraged frustrated and so tired x.x
I had to get that out
Thanks for listening
I'm at a point where I almost want to delete this post because of lack of energy, negative feelings about myself, and hating hearing myself whine and put things on others. And realizing that this post, like so much of my life has gotten me NOWHERE.
from the lands of nowhere
~turquoisesea
__________________
Yesterday I was so clever, so I want to change the world.
Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.
|