Hi Laura2 and Welcome,

Im sorry you are going through such pain at the moment - maybe you could ask your T if you could slow things down - let him know that you feel a bit overwhelmed

I isolated myself fromt he world - threw myself into my job - then when I was attacke at work I realised that I could lose that and I would have nothing - its not a pleasant thought. Now I can trust a few people - ok its less than 5 but before it was 0 - therapy has helped me pick up the threads of my life and start putting them in order - I hope it works out for you.

As to becoming dependant on your T - I never was dependant on anyone - but you know what? I think of having a T as having a coach - they listen adn let you know if you can do somthing better - and try to help us to change those warpy thoughts that most of us have

take care