today i've been crying at everything and nothing dunno why i thik it's just stress and general disillusionment - pah but anyway i si'd tonight for first time in months- o weeks i forget, either way a while - a good 2 months or so. but hey, not any longer. f**k it, i'm beyond caring now - tonight i've cried too much , i've realised my heroes are past it (and these guys have been heros for 20 years except the one that hung himself 25 yrs ago, he had the rifght idea) and i'm stressed as hell cos i'm meant to give a presentation tomorrow and this guy topped himsefl 25 yrs ago this week and it's all being mentined in all the press and it's making me regret that i didn't do the same - i'm 28 and i'm too old, i should have been dead at bitrh and if not then not long after - ah fu*k it uit's just a bad day