i could relate to how you are currently feeling. when i was first diagnosed bpd i couldn't adjust well to the diagnosis. for some reason it made me angry. i had stated to my t "i just want to be normal." i felt the bpd was controlling my life...how i felt...when i felt, etc. my t made some helpful suggestions...he said if you have high blood pressure what does one do? of course i said, see the doc and take pills to control the high blood pressure. he replied yes and that's what you can do with the bpd. take medication to balance the chemicals in your brain and come to therapy to help you too. over time i realized that what he told me was true. i became more balanced with my moodswings and the therapy helped me to learn to cope with life things. this combination really worked for me. it is difficult to accept for some ppl like you and me. but from my expereinces i can tell you that it can be done. i hope this helps you in some way. keep posting and get out your frustration. that also helps relieve the stress that you will overcome in time i'm sure.