Sandy,

Part of getting yourself back is the talking that you say you won't do. I understand the difficulty of it as I have spent years trying to get out the traumas inside.

How did the pdoc appt. go? Did she rx any longer acting benzo?

Please continue to find avenues to reach out to as this isn't something you can do on your own.

Have you been able to keep up with your walking? How about books on tape while doing that? Just some off the wall ideas to toss out there for you.

Life is the thing you are doing WHILE you're saying you don't feel like you can do it. Life is pesky that way. Keeps happening all the while we're trying to plan and regain control and such.

Do the best each day and try to let go of the rest. Be honest about how hard the feelings are and if they become dangerous again.

keep on Sandy. keep on please. We know that it is hard by the very act of posting on an Internet mental health support forum.....we wouldn't be here if we hadn't had some major challenges with our lives and dxs.