To go cold turkey off my meds? I didn't actually mean to, I just kept forgetting to go and pick up the prescription from the pharmacy :-/

But now, Connor's been saying not to go back and get them because... So he says... When I was on the meds and was "happy" it seemed synthetic, not real, like it was just a show or something even if it wasn't. Whereas now, he says I'm not getting frustrated so easily as I was when I was on the meds and I have been happy and it's seemed so real and more often... But yet... I can't sleep!!!!

I didn't sleep for 75 hours at one point, which caused me to have hallucinations, making me cry, be anxious and cut. What use is that?!

I don't know what to do... I know that he doesn't want me going back on the meds and I know that I've felt a little better anyway and that I want to be able to get through all this on my own, but not sleeping makes it all worse... What can I do???