i wasn't sure where to post this, i dont even know if this is the right place. i was in hospital for what they thought was my appendix but it turned out to be a burst cysts on the ovaries. I was in for 5 days and on the last day i had to have an internal and a pap smear done. it brought back memories of my rape, i felt disgusting and violated all over again. i got home and the first thing i did was got in the shower and put my clothes in the wash. since then ive had nightmares of the whole internal and pap smear all over again except its my step dad whose doing it plus more. i want it to stop but how ???