All these triggers. flashbacks. nightmares. panicattacks. waking up, remembering my brother is gone, knowing it's another day I got to get trough - somehow. Didn't even go to school today.
It feels like someone, something is holding me down, pressing me slowly in the water, my brother dying being the final straw
and now i'm really drowning
No one to help, no lifesavervest able to rescue me or at least keep me from drowning
it's to much.. I can;t do this anymore