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it is the frustration that makes me angry ..i have to be in control .. i have to be able to not check out everytime i am with ppl or hear all of their voices in silence. it has to stop.
why wont they go away?
i do not know how many are inside of me - i am aware of a few that seem to be the strongest.. the others i am not sure of ..have no idea.
i know that there are little artisits inside that do not speak ..they are very creative. and teenage artists that are not so nice pretty dark in their thinking and creativity .. they came when depression hit me around 10 became very dark when depression was serious around 14.
the flashbacks of the tiny one would always sign ech coloring page and would put clear tape over her name. that was one i know about. she was obsessed with tape lol.
i am too afraid to try to commuicate with the others even the little one because i am to scared to find out what happened - i just want it to go away and not haunt me anymore in my dreams or in everyday life.
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"I see my light come shining
From the west unto the east.
Any day now, any day now,
I shall be released."
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